What up?
I wasn\’t gonna have this conversation because I wanted to…
Keep these thoughts to myself.
But every time we do these conversations there\’s always so much value eventually.
So it\’s like you don\’t wanna do it, but it\’s worth it.
It\’s worth it.
So I have to force myself.
But that\’s okay.
Here we are.
Here we are.
I just painted and that\’s what I wanted to talk to you about…
I wanted to talk to you about the painting.
So it\’s really about that time.
It\’s about that time to start painting bigger paintings.
But there was…
There\’s a painting that I did a long time ago and it\’s a painting that I really liked.
But I\’ve learned so much about the inks and I\’m learning about layers.
And so all the paintings I did like a year or two years ago.
A lot of them are one layer cuz I didn\’t know what I was doing and I still don\’t.
I still don\’t.
But I learned better how to control my layers, and I\’m trying to get better at creating lines and shapes that feel very good.
But it\’s so hard.
It\’s so hard to do because, it doesn\’t matter what I want the lines and shapes to look like.
It doesn\’t really matter because the inks are gonna do what they wanna do.
I have no say.
I don\’t have much of a say.
It\’s like you do what you can, but every color…
Every color just dries differently.
It dries differently.
So the drying effect or how it dries is what creates the picture…
If that makes any sense?
Because the way it dries, that\’s what creates the lines and the shapes and the vibrancy of the ink.
And, how you dry the inks dry that will determine or influence the lines and shapes even more.
So that\’s why so the way blue dries is very different than what, than the way orange dries or the way purple dries, you need to really…study them.
You have to study them.
And, the way you study is by practicing and you keep painting.
And the more you paint the more you learn and the more you learn the more you don\’t know.
And what I\’ve come to realize, the biggest lesson I\’m learning recently is that if we can just accept…
Accept.
Accept…
Accept what?
I don\’t even know.
I\’ll let you know when I figure it out, but that\’s what\’s coming up.
Something about acceptance.
Acceptance.
I just haven\’t been able to fully accept…
My desire to be an extraordinary Alcohol Ink Artist.
I haven\’t been able to accept it because there\’s been this energy in my way.
This energy\’s been blocking me off and I couldn\’t see clearly.
And I couldn\’t see to the extent that I needed to in order to really trust what I\’m being called to do.
And that calling is the alcohol links because they have the information and I am so obsessed with them and this information.
And my work is to get the information out.
That\’s why we have to study the details.
We have to know how each color dries.
You have to know how each color responds to other colors.
It\’s very important, cuz if you know that, and you know that blue doesn\’t respond well to anyone it seems.
I dunno why.
The inks I\’ve been using recently…
They\’re not responding very well.
Why, why, why?
Could it be the brand?
Could it be the time of day?
Could it be the time of year?
Could it be the, the chemicals in the air?
I don\’t know.
If blue doesn\’t respond well to red, or orange or whatever.
And you know that then when you make your paintings, you will have that information
in your head, so then you might be less likely to use blue with red.
Just as an example.
I\’m not saying that blue doesn\’t go with red or they don\’t blend well, they do but it just depends on the situation.
It depends on what layer, and it depends on what other colors are involved.
And it depends on how you dry it.
And if you use isopropyl alcohol and extender.
Like all these variables matter.
All these variables matter.
And are you painting in sun?
If you can paint in the sun even better, hun.
Painting in the sun changes the painting entirely.
So I have to study the paintings and collect the data.
And that data then gets distributed to the world.
Well, anyway, what I wanted to talk about was how I had this painting from years ago, and I never thought I would add another layer to it…
But that\’s what I did tonight.
I added another layer because I just knew…
I just saw the painting and I was like I have to add another.
I know what I can do with this.
And the funny thing is after all these paintings
I still think that I can do what I want to when I really can\’t.
I can\’t.
Like what I thought was gonna happen is not what happened.
Not even a little bit.
And so I don\’t know if that\’s a reflection of me, and I\’m not quite the extraordinary alcohol ink artist I wanna be.
Or if that\’s because the inks will never let you tell their story.
They\’re never gonna let you tell a specific story.
So it\’s like I want them to look a certain way because, for me when I see the paintings I just see the lines and shapes.
And if they don\’t feel symmetrical in some way.
I mean like abstractly, symmetrical which sounds contradicting, but it\’s not.
It\’s like you can have abstract and it just feels off.
But you can also have abstract and it feels not off.
Those are my technical terms: off not off.
So I\’m trying to create paintings that are not off.
That feel balanced even though they\’re abstract.
But what I\’m trying to say is I just don\’t think that I can really even influence that because it\’s like they dry in their own way.
So it\’s like when you\’re painting it, and you say, oh, this is where I wanna stop painting, cuz I like the way it looks and this is how this is.
And I want it to stay like this.
Well, guess what?
It\’s not gonna stay like that because the inks are gonna dry.
They\’re gonna dry and then they\’re gonna create textures and lines that are gonna create their own effect.
And so what it looks like when you stop painting versus what it looks like when it\’s dry is very, very, very, very different.
So that\’s why I\’m not trying to tell you a story but the inks are trying to activate the story within you.
The stories that need to be healed.
The stories that you need to tell.
The stories that you\’ve been holding onto.
The paintings…
The information that comes from all of the variables the colors.
The lines.
The shapes.
That information…
It actually like triggers a response.
It activates DNA and glands.
And your third eye and your chakras…
Because of the colors.
So that\’s why it really doesn\’t matter what painting you have…
Just having the information…
Just being around the colors and the lines.
The shapes…
That\’s why having a home gallery can be very, very, very, Powerful in helping you raise your frequency, because then you\’re just going to be surrounded by this information.
You\’re going to be activating your DNA all the time…
Whenever you\’re home.
And so if you\’re just home and you\’re healing.
And you\’re doing the work and you\’re creating and you\’re just like becoming the highest ideal version of yourself…think about that for a minute.
And if you\’re surrounding yourself with this kind of information.
It\’s like you don\’t even have to try cuz it\’s just happening for you through the enmeshment.
Just from being around this energy…
Just like a narcissist can enmesh their energy into you and take you for a little ride.
Hijack your mind.
Just like the narcissists can cause this effect where they brainwash you.
Steal your vibe.
Well, guess what?
The alcohol inks can bring you back to life.
The alcohol inks they can remind you of who you are.
They can activate your codes.
The codes THEY don\’t want you to know.
That\’s why they\’re afraid of us…
Cuz of our DNA.
That\’s why they want to take us over.
This is why they want to replace us with AI.
Because they\’re afraid of our potential.
They\’re afraid of who we could be if we remembered.
It\’s just hilarious, right?
Because it\’s like we are technology.
We are probably the most advanced technology anyone\’s ever seen.
Prove me wrong.
Prove otherwise.
The problem is they just have this stronghold on our mind.
It\’s like the world is a narcissist.
So we have to change that frequency.
We have to break the chain.
We have to cut ties.
Break out of the stronghold.
Cut the cording.
Rewire your mind.
Remember who you are.
D N A.
God
Source code
okay?
Like so many people have been trained to think that they are slaves.
Trained to be a victim to their stories.
The sad never-ending stories…
Well, this happened to me and I am this and I am not that.
And I\’m this.
I\’m not that.
We have to fight for our rights.
Fight for our differences.
Fight for equality.
It\’s so pathetic.
The whole system is so fucking disgusting.
The religious system.
The education system.
The medical system.
The justice system.
Show me a system that is actually helping people get well or become the best version of themselves.
None of the systems are designed to promote health and wellbeing.
To facilitate a healthy society; mentally, physically, spiritually.
No, no, no.
Humanity is desperately trying to stab each other in the back.
Greed and insecurity is the driving force of everything.
I think the root of it though is that so many people are so, so, so heartbroken.
There\’s so much trauma.
There\’s so much trauma and nobody deals with their shit.
Nobody\’s dealing with their shit.
So it\’s never gonna end.
It\’s never gonna fucking end.
It\’s just like getting more crazy out there.
It\’s just like upside down world.
Upside down world.
And so I just don\’t know how we\’re gonna snap ourselves out of it.
But we better do it soon.
And that\’s why I really wanna encourage you to um, surround yourself with alcohol ink art paintings.
A home gallery or just at least one.
You gotta start somewhere, hun.
Or if you wanna take it a step further…
Get yourself some inks and become an alcohol ink artist.
Either way, I\’m promising you…
I\’m here to tell you that this is a tool that we can all use.
It\’s easy to do.
And it\’s filled with information you have within you.
And so if you have a painting or if you have access to the inks.
You can activate that information and that will help you escape the matrix.
The inverted matrix.
And in doing so you will help….
Create heaven on earth.
To create a world where we have lines and shapes that feel good.
Vibrancy.
Saturation.
Richness.
Depth.
Brilliance,
Alignment.
For the first time ever in my life I feel like I have achieved a level of alignment that I\’ve never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever have.
Everything\’s lining up.
Everything.
I could feel it…
And I know why.
It\’s because of the inks.
They\’ve been really helping me this entire time.
And I just like kept going all in and then I\’d stop.
And go all in and then I\’d stop.
And I think maybe that\’s how it had to happen because you have to appreciate the process of getting the download.
So when you\’re around the paintings you get the information and you have to process that information.
So it\’s like your soul…
Your body…
I don\’t know who it is in me but someone\’s doing something…
They\’re downloading.
They\’re taking the information and they\’re dissecting it and breaking it down.
And studying it.
And then processing that information via thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that comes through my actions.
So it takes time for the information to become you.
To work through you.
And this is how we get into a state of flow.
When that information is coming through you…
You are in the flow.
It\’s like you don\’t have to try anymore.
You allow.
Changes everything and thus the work you do is more precise.
More bang for your buck.
A better return on investment.
So I had this energy that just kept coming in and I didn\’t know how to escape it.
And so I couldn\’t get ahead.
I couldn\’t get ahead.
I couldn\’t get out of stuck.
It\’s like I kept trying to go all in on this but then I would get thrown off and all these things just kept happening.
These really weird health problems and these really weird spells of depression.
And like I wanted to kill myself for so long.
That wasn\’t me though.
I don\’t think that was me.
I think it\’s the interference….
And that interference was able to get in because I didn\’t truly accept them.
The paintings.
The work.
I didn\’t truly accept it.
I wasn\’t really fully committed to the plan.
To the dream.
The dream of being the world\’s greatest alcohol ink artist.
Just because I can.
I mean, what else am I gonna do?
I don\’t know.
I don\’t know.
This is the thing that I\’m really the best at.
And I\’m not even that good but I like that.
Like I just wanna know more about them.
And so I wanna sell them to people.
I want them to be my business so that you can get the information.
I just think it\’d be good for people to have the information.
It\’d be good to have the information.
I just wanna make money doing something I truly love.
And we live in a world that makes you think you can\’t do that.
That\’s why there\’s nowhere to go for help.
That\’s why nobody is helping each other.
That\’s why there\’s nowhere to go for help.
That\’s why everybody needs help.
There\’s nowhere to go for help.
The systems want you to feel like killing yourself.
They want you to kill yourself.
But I feel like we have an opportunity now more than we ever have to break the systems that don\’t work and create new ones.
It\’s not that we don\’t want systems.
It\’s just that we want systems that are actually working.
I guess I need to get some water…
Okay….
Well, as I was saying it\’s not that we don\’t need systems but we want systems that actually help us expand and grow.
But the only way that\’s gonna happen is if we cultivate the systems of self mastery within ourself.
And when you do that then how you show up in the world will change because the reason why the systems are the way they are is because the people that are serving in those systems are keeping the problems going.
I think it\’s important for people to be more open-minded and think about ways that they can fill holes and turn that idea to fill a hole into a business, or into a service.
Anyway, I\’m bored of this conversation.
I don\’t wanna talk anymore.
I wanna go and lay down because I feel like I gotta lay down.
I\’ve been doing a lot of work today.
I did that painting and I organized the catalog.
The catalog is really come together and I\’m just really excited to see how this next phase unfolds because I feel something very big.
The wave.
The wave of all my hard work finally paying off.
It\’s coming.
I can feel it.
And I don\’t know if it\’s just because it\’s divine timing or if it\’s because I accepted the inks.
And when you accept your quest, everything just falls into place, and the journey to getting there…
That\’s the healing journey.
The journey of letting go of who you don\’t want to be…
That\’s why it\’s so hard to accept who you really are…
Because you have become this version of yourself that probably isn\’t really true to who you really are.
But it\’s who you had to be.
It\’s who you had to be because of the circumstances of the way things are….
The way things have been.
